Hi, my name is Monique, and I would love to share my story with you and why I am passionate about helping others.
In the summer of 2002, my whole life changed. I was painting our new house when I fell 18ft and died. I had an out of body experience. I saw the paramedics working on me and my children hysterical.
Then God appeared to me and told me it was not my time yet – that He had more work for me to do, and I remember hearing my son crying and pleading with me,
“Mommy please don’t die, please don’t die!”
The paramedics had arrived, and I was immediately rushed to the hospital, and the doctors didn’t think I would make it through the night. I survived, however, not without a lot of injuries. I broke my shoulder at the front of the shoulder joint, and I also broke the back of my shoulder called the Scapula. Apparently, this is the hardest bone in your body.
I also broke three ribs, and I completely separated them tearing all the muscles and ligaments that were attached to them. I had a collapsed lung and hit my head in three places leaving me with short term memory loss. I also scraped the whole right side of my face. I was a mess and in excruciating pain.
The medical team kept me flat on my back for three days because they thought I might be paralyzed. Thank goodness I wasn’t. As soon as the doctors realized I wasn’t paralyzed, they sent me home on the fourth day.
After contemplating my conversation with God, I began searching for meaning in my life. I was still in lots of pain wondering if this pain would ever go away. It had already been four months since my accident, and I still had excruciating pain. My life was unbearable most days. I became angry with God wondering why he had sent me back to earth only to go through all this pain and suffering. Emotionally and physically I was exhausted. However, I had to keep going because there was no other choice. I had a family to raise.
I began searching for answers as to why I was given this hand in life. I started reading books that taught me that God was about love, not condemnation. I realized there was more to life than what I was seeing. God had a purpose for me.
I kept asking myself what is my purpose in life? Why did God give me a second chance?
I was raised in the Catholic Church but I never fully understood about God’s Son, Jesus Christ. I was in bondage to religious thinking that I had to be perfect for God to love me. There was no freedom in this. I never felt good enough, and no matter how hard I tried I failed until the truth was revealed to me.
My friend Wanda Hamilton suggested that I read the Bible. Even though our family went to church every Sunday, I had never seen a Bible in our house let alone read one, so this was foreign to me. So the more I thought about it, the more curious I became, wondering what is so great about the Bible anyway?
I decided to go to Parables to check into Bibles; however, I was not able to purchase a Bible because I had such an unhealthy fear of God. I was obviously not ready, so I thought. Nobody told me anything about the devil trying to stop me from seeking the truth. So I browsed around the bookstore, and I came across another book that got my attention, so I bought it.
I began reading it, and there were sections in the book that brought that intense fear back to me, so I phoned my friend Wanda, and I told her what was going on. She asked me to read to her the part that scared me, and she then began to explain to me what it meant.
She said, “God loves you. He doesn’t want to harm you.”
However, when I was a little girl, I was told that if I wasn’t a good kid that God was going to punish me. So I lived in fear, and this made me believe that God was a mean and hateful God. Wanda told me this was not true.
“God is a loving God.”
So since I trusted Wanda I continued to read my book slowly, and every time I felt the fear, I would call Wanda and she would explain the passage to me and the fear would disappear till I was finally able to complete the book.
Then in the summer of 2005, I went to visit my friend, Wanda. While I was there I began to talk to her about the Bible. I asked her if she could recommend a Bible to me. So she did. I ordered, “The New Women’s International Bible” online. I received my Bible a few weeks later but I could not open it. I still had that fear. So my new Bible sat on my end table for two weeks before I finally had the courage to read it.
Then one day I just knew that this was going to be the day that I was going to start reading my new Bible. God had prepared my heart. Wanda suggested I start with the book of John. While I was reading it, I had the most wonderful experience. I was reading about the crucifixion of Jesus and what Jesus went through and this touched my heart.
Then I felt an enormous feeling of joy and love wash over me. I was so excited and so happy that it hurt. I had never felt such a wonderful experience. I was high on love. I felt such gratitude to God, but I still didn’t know what it meant till I phoned Wanda. She became very excited. She said,
“You have just been saved. You have been born again in the spirit. You are now a follower of Jesus and a child of God and you will have eternal life.”
I was so exhilarated. My whole life changed instantly. God began revealing to me a new direction and purpose for my life. I continued to read the Bible because I found the stories so fascinating.
I remember phoning Wanda and telling her with such excitement. It’s all here. Everything you want to know about life is in the Bible. I never in my wildest dreams ever imagined myself reading the Bible not along sharing my experience with you. God works in mysterious ways sometimes. To God be the Glory!
Why didn’t I see this before?
Wanda said, “Because you were not ready.” I had been so duped by the enemy and his lies.
I became a Christian on August 26, 2005.
The emptiness that I felt was now gone. All I felt was love and joy. In my search for answers I discovered what was missing in my life all along.
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